I wish I took more pictures of life.
Rainy day traffic (of course, I love the rain, but not the traffic that comes with it) setting my day behind. The sticker on my windshield warning me that it is time to get an oil change. The low fuel light flashing onto my dashboard a few times a week. I can handle these. But not finding one of my tires completely flat and stressing out about when I will find time to get it replaced. And certainly not having my windshield hit by small rocks flying off the back of a big rig truck. Another repair to fit into my packed schedule. Nearly causing a bad car accident shaking me up and nearly bringing me to tears. Tuesday was not a good car day, to say the least.
In other news, I am exhausted and stressed out. But life is good, God provides, and certain people/conversations make me happy.
I just need a break from it all, I am starting to realize. Time to just sleep in, read a book, get organized, not be in constant contact with people, because it is wearing me out. Like I said, conversations are great, but I want to fully appreciate my time with others, rather than wishing I could catch a moment to myself.
It seems almost paradoxical, given that I feel like I hardly see anybody enough. Yet I am constantly surrounded, and we’re all stressed, we’re all running from place to place trying to get things done… And then the people who actually are not running around have trouble understanding, and I feel horrible. I’m only alone when I sleep and when I drive.
Whine whine whine. I love people and I wish I could handle being around them 24/7…
But I can’t anymore.
