I finished my internship the other week, and walked out with a couple of free goods, including a real book with my name in it in the editor’ss section, and you know… it was kind of exhilarating to see my name in print, even if it was just tiny and on the second to last page, and I did not actually do any writing, just editing.
And that sentence up there could probably use some editing, but it will have to do.
I finished my Shakespeare class, and I have to say, it was pretty treacherous. I cannot say that it was the hardest thing I have ever done, and I still have to take another Shakespeare (or Milton) class, so I cannot even say that I feel like I have accomplished anything other than (hopefully) a B… but it is still a load off my back. I can say that on Monday I start a (hopefully) fun American Fiction class, so that is very exciting for me! But probably not to you, so… moving on!
I am noticing that I do not really have a competitive streak in me when it comes to situations in which I should probably be more competitive. I am pretty passive in terms of grades, rank, games, etc. (unless there is something bigger than reputation at stake). I kind of like it because I can do my own thing without really caring to try coming out above others who are wanting to do better than me… it is good because I do not feel the need to compete in those situations so I guess that it works out because other people can win and I can settle in my mediocrity and not care less! I can perform according to my own standards and be proud or upset based on my expectations rather than in comparison to other people who are competing with me. I do notice though that when a person is not competitive, but they are just good at life in general, it makes me want to do better, it spurs me on… not to try and be better than them, but to be just as good in my own way. I am not sure if all of this is good or bad though! I think it is good to have my own values, but maybe I should care more in general too. Whoooo knows!
