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Thank you to everybody who has congratulated me about UCLA, either through this website or in other ways. It is very much appreciated!

On Friday, my friend Mary and I drove up to San Luis Obispo… it was very green, and so much more lovely than I remembered it to be. It was amazing. I spoke with one of the leading English professors and he assured me that I would fit in. The trip was very nice, but I was frustrated, because I was honestly hoping to go up and hate it, since that would make my decision easier.

I still need to make the same types of trips for UCLA and CSULB. Tomorrow I am going to tell all of the schools that I will be attending in the fall to literally buy myself some more time. It will probably cost me about two hundred bucks, but… I say that it is worth it.

Just so we all know though, I am leaning toward UCLA. Reading through the catalog and looking at the books I would get to read for two years gets me very giddy.

Something else that is interesting… if I go to UCLA, I will be setting myself for an incredibly long summer vacation. Seriously. From mid-May (about 2.5 weeks left!) until the very end of September. I wish I knew what Summer had in store for me.

There are various possibilities. I might take summer courses. I want to work a lot. I might get a new job (a bank?). I am waiting on certain confirmations about a trip to London or Cambodia (haha, since they are SO similar to each other, right?). I think I am taking a short trip to San Francisco with a friend whose friendship was recently restored with me in a few weeks. I want to go camping. I want to hit up the East Coast or the midwest. So many things I want to do!

These past two weeks have been some of the craziest ever. I have been so emotionally high and also the lowest I have been in a long long time.

Habits of fickleness and feeling guilty have returned, and it is proving hard to chase those feelings away.

It is hard to know how to feel in general.

I think for now I will continue trying to look forward hopefully.

Listen to my favorite song of the week!

Please pray.