Posted in November 2005

The opposite of productive.

So am I the only one who makes plans to do a bunch of studying and writing on a Saturday and then ends up doing anything except homework?

Let me explain.

I have many pages of writing due within this next week between all of my classes, which naturally have been left until the last moment. Normally I would figure that it’s fine and would just dedicate the weekend to writing. Things are different though this weekend. Obviously, it is Thanksgiving weekend. This is the first time in a few months that my family and I have all been able to be together and it has been fun. We drove along the coast on Thanksgiving and had a grand time.

Additionally, a friend of mine has been staying with me for the past couple of days. While we have definitely found ways to entertain ourselves,

my room looks like a warzone,


and it is hard to make yourself do work when you have a friend that you want to be hanging out with.

Regardless, this morning was my chance. She was at work, so I had a good half day to finish at least one assignment. All I have written is two sentances. And now she is off of work and heading back over here and then in a few hours, I will be off to work.

Speaking of which, have I mentioned that I now have a HAT I have to wear at work? No, I don’t think i have.

I hate that I have to wear it, but as far as the hat goes… I kind of like it. I am a nerd.

Hi, livejournal. My internet life has been taking place over here and here for the past couple of weeks, but I felt like making a post here, just to shake things up a bit.

Biggest news in my life right now: I am happy. Genuinely happy. That is what I am the most thankful for right now, and the happiness is for many reasons; to make it short, everything is falling into place. It is an amazing feeling.

In related news, I have found a boy who can make me laugh, who can hold his coffee better than I could ever hope to, a boy who kisses me on the top of my head when we say goodbye. We are not ‘together’ but we certainly are nerds together.

See?

“I can’t tell where we are going
But it looks good so far
The view out the window is epic
I am anxious to see more”

We care about our food.

Today I strolled into my Spanish class just over 10 minutes late and I was still definitely not the last person to show. The infamous Demetrio tried to give us a quiz but everybody just stared at him so he decided not to. Out of no where some students walked in with soda, coffee, and tamales and we dedicated a THIRD class meeting to eating Mexican food and doing not much of anything else. Oh, and the class is cancelled for Wednesday. So yes, the workload in Spanish continues to be based on how much food I can manage to shove in my mouth and nothing else. Good times.

Apart from this, school is definitely starting to pick up its pace. Like most college students, the due dates for term papers and final exam dates are fast approaching for me, and at times it can be a bit stressful. Every single one of my grades is borderlining right now, so I have to do extra credit for all of my classes to ensure I get A’s instead of B’s and one B instead of a C. My other school concerns have been about next semester and next fall. I am excited though a bit weary to see how everything turns out.

In all honesty though, this semester has been very enjoyable. Autumn is such a great time of the year. Of course, it would help if it was a bit cooler, but that is as far as my complaints go. I have had such a good time with everybody, and had so many good conversations with those around me. It seems like the past few months have very much been about getting to know people on a deeper level. Thanks so much to the people who have done this with me, because it has meant a lot and has helped me out greatly.

Also, thanks to those of you who continue to read this website! It means a lot that you guys continue to check back. I know that a lot of the things I write about will not be interesting to people who do not know me in real life; my writing is not for the masses. Regardless, thanks to the few of you who do check in occasionally despite only knowing me through the internet, you know who you are. A thank you to those of you who I do know in “real life,” and read this despite having to put up with me through the week, and to those who I once knew and now use this to keep up with my life.

Thanksgiving is this week! I hope you all have time to reflect on the past year and have things to be thankful for. I myself will spend the long weekend doing an extra shift at work, so make sure you guys have some fun for me! My family is staying home this year which is nice, but different because we usually go camping or travelling a bit during this time; this puts more pressure on us to have a ‘proper’ Thanksgiving meal. I do not really like turkey or ham. We might make carne asada to eat with our instant mashed potatoes and our break-n-bake dinner rolls. THAT is what I call a Thanksgiving meal! Hope you all have a good one!

Hermana Susie.

My car is full of useless items. If you look in the trunk there are random shoes, jackets, a comforter, a pillow, some towels, discarded (and thankfully, empty) drink cups, books, random papers, and basically anything else you can imagine a college student who lives out of her car during the day would need. Today I was searching through newly washed car (meaning it has rained a little during the past few days and the blanket of filfth that usually masks my windshield was no longer present) at six in the morning, trying to gather a few school books when a familiar looking car pulled up to my house. It was a friend of my mother’s (why she was at my house that early, I have no clue) came up to say hello while she took a glance at my mess. She asked me if I had just gotten back from that trip I had mentioned to her a few weeks earlier (trip???) or if I was getting ready to leave. I should mention that I was not fully awake yet, and my general appearance made this fairly obvious. I was, in fact wearing an old pair of pajama bottoms and a faded old cross country sweatshirt with my hood on, and I was sporting the unwashed “I just woke up and coming out to the car was LITERALLY the first thing I chose to do” look. So yeah, I was looking and feeling pretty good at the moment that she asked me this. It took me a while to even realize why she was asking, but when it finally did register I started laughing pretty hard. Unfortunately, my laugh was not of the nice, light hearted fashion. Instead, I decided to make myself look less strange by breaking into a coughing fit in the middle of my laughter while I tried to explain that I was actually just needing to finish some writing before my class later in the morning, but I do not think that she got the point. My mom came out of the house at this moment, so I thanked the friend for making my day, and she walked away with a confused look of relief on her face.

I wish I could say that this is the only embarassing thing that I have done in front of this family friend, but I have known her since I was four. I was the annoying kid announcing what time it was and how tired I was from the backseat of the car at every instant I found convenient while she and my mom tried to have a very serious conversation in the front seat. I was the kid in her sunday school class who sucked up and thought she was better than everybody because she was best friends with my mom. I was the kid who wanted to be a good host one time when she and her sister came over to “my house” (I was possesive of my parents belongings borrowings) and made them a sandwich out of cilantro (unwashed and attached to the stems), wonder bread, and nothing else. She was the first person that I explained my method of making real spaghetti in the microwave (I was not allowed to use the stove) to. She was also the first person to learn that I would pretend to be sick so that I could stay home, make said spaghetti, watch Ghostwriter, and bake cakes (since ovens are so much safer) while enjoying my solitude. I was introverted even back then at age nine! Additionally, this woman is the one who knows pretty much everything about me having to do with boys, school, puberty (14!!!!! WHY?!? [sorry, inside joke]) because my mom has felt the need to shake these details out of me and share them with this friend (and my Aunt who I believe I will be seeing in a few weeks, yay!) with the purpose of ruining my life. Or because she loved me and knew that 10 years down the line, I would willingly be involved in the dangerous world of computers, would pay rent to have a place on the world wide web, and would need something to write about, something that all of the creepy old men in the world could read.

Just thought that I would share. Do any of you have a family friend like this? One who you love, have known for years, could talk to for hours, but would pretend you did not know if they tried to tell anybody that for fun, you used to swing back and forth on your bedroom door? I know I cannot be alone, on the family friend situation as well as on the swinging door thing.

All Esther needs now is a mullet and some legwarmers.

That’s one of the results that comes up when I google “Esther Needs.”

Doing random things such as googling yourself are necessary in keeping oneself light hearted and happy.

Recently I have been discovering additional ways of achieving similar results:

1. Dressing up in formal dresses from high school and dancing with the coolest girls you’ll ever meet.
2. Making a goal to make the fewest amount of drinks at work. In the past week, I managed to make fewer than 20 drinks (if you are not familiar with the food/beverage service industry, that is looooow).
3. Beginning to indulge in the season’s delicacies. Egg nog and pumpkin pie, and in lethal amounts.
4. Smiling and nodding at the uselessness of your spanish class. Since the last time I spoke about the class we have had ANOTHER potluck, but not an actual lesson. The professor (if we can really call him one) is so desperate for a new job that he’s asking us for help in getting him started in a new profession.
5. Looking at next semester’s class schedule and getting giddy about all the courses you want to take. (Nerd status).
6. Actually SAVING money for once.
7. Looking forward to the holidays and the wonderful weather (colder than 70 degrees!) that they come with.
8. Killing off old habits.
9. Giggling because my dad has started forwarding chain letters to me, and while it might will definitely get annoying if it continues, for now it is endearing.

Oh, and surprise surprise, a post at the Downloads section.

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