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My 19th birthday was a success, one of the best I have ever had. It was amazing to just have so many people I love gathered around specifically for me. There was good food, movie watching, guitar playing/singing, presents, and all around good fun. Earlier in the day I got to hang out with my brother for a few hours because today he was moving back to Santa Barbara for school.

My brother was getting ready to leave at around noon today, and most everybody had already gone home; Mary and I spontaneously decided to drive up with my brother. We helped him move in and then we hung out for a while before driving back.

These past few weeks have been so amazing. I am incredibly broke (I literally have the least amount of money right now than I have had since I was about 10!), school has started up again, and moving was hectic, but it is okay. I have gotten to reconnect with some of my friends, and they really are family to me now. It’s like, in the past month some incredible bonding has taken place, I have never felt so comfortable in a group of people. The money thing sucks, but it is okay. It has been a good experience to really worry about money and watch my spending. The moving has put us into a great place. I actually like all of my classes. Even the biology ones. Did I mention that I have switched my major to Spanish?

I miss a lot of you guys, but at the same time, it makes me even more glad to know that you are all doing well and that things are generally happy.

Thanks to everybody who had done their part to help year No. 19 get off to a better start than the actual start of 2005 was.

I recently realized that I usually write in this when I am feeling upset at something, and hardly ever when I am genuinely happy. This is not really a problem, since it is my journal, and I should write whenever I want to, but that is not what I want most of my entries to be. When things are going well I generaly disreguard this place and continue enjoying my time, and boredom usually goes along with depression, at least in my case.

Anyway, today I realized that the past couple of days have been going pretty well, and it is only fair to make a post to document that. School starts on Monday, and we are moving the same week which will be crazy, but it’s okay, I think I am looking forward to both of these, at least in most aspects. My parents bought me some new furniture at Ikea (aka the promised land), so that’s fun. Even though I had to work some hours I didn’t want to, the check I got from work today was huge, bigger than any paycheck I have had before which is perfect because it came just in time for getting books and supplies for school and for some other expenses. I recieved a scholarship last semester, but by looking closely at the requirements for it, I was not sure that I was supposed to get it… turns out I really was not. But since that was the offices mistake and not mine, I was still able to recieve it today. So that helps to pay for some of my classes, which is nice.

This week I got to spend a lot of time with Mary and Melissa and it has been real fun. We have watched so many movies, we have laughed so hard, we have heard about each other’s low points, we have dreamed about the possibility of getting an apartment in LA together if we all go to UCLA… it has been a good time, and I am so thankful for the time we have had together.

I got my car serviced today, everything is working well again.

I am going to see Ben Folds with Monica on thursday.

I think the new plan is a girls weekend in Catalina for my birthday. Mark ya calendars.

So there we go, things are fine now. This is not to brag, it is more so that I can look back on these entries and not see myself as being eternally sad. Have a good weekend, you guys.

I do not actually want to update right now, but it feels like writing and reading updates (mine and some of yours) are my only links to some of you right now, but I guess that is the way it goes in the “grown up” working world.

We officially found a place, we are officially moving in on the 15. It is in Lakewood, it is pretty big… not in the BEST condition ever, but it’s fine; it puts me a lot closer to work and school. Things are still stressful today though. A family outing today should have been happier, but it seemed like all everybody did was argue and complain. We were not listening to each other at all, it was like if we were all mad at each other except nobody knew the reason why.

My spirits continue to go up and down, but as a whole they are moving up.

This past week has been a gift, it went by pretty fast. I worked a lot of hours, but I do not think I have had a more fun day at work in a while than I did friday morning.

Tuesday I bought a new domain and paid for a couple of months of hosting. Right now I am trying to figure out movable type and then get it all set up. R.I.P. oh-heck-no.net.

On wednesday I went to six flags, and it was so much fun. There were no new rides since the last time I went there, but it was fun just the same. Goliath and Riddler’s revenge are still my favorites!

Yesterday I went swimming for the first time since school got out, and it was a blast as well. Why is it that I only have this next week of vacation before school starts, and I am only beginning to summery things? Not fair!

I want to try and go out of town for my birthday, but I do not know where or with whom. I wanted to go camping, but I don’t know if it will work… I almost want to be spontaneous and hop on a plane somewhere, but going alone? I’m not sure. I got the whole weekend of it off so we’ll see what I end up doing. I might just spend the weekend watching my favorite movies and spending time with people, we’ll see. I know that I am treating myself to a Ben Folds concert, whether anybody goes with me or not, I am very excited about that. I wish I went to more concerts and shows, it seems like that was all last year. The thing is that my music tastes have changed (ha, in that I now have some?) and they are different from most people that I know. Not that everybody likes sucky music, but most of it is not to my liking. And while I like to have my own music to myself, going to see a band or musician perform alone is something I have never done.

I wish I had just one more month of summer.

Oh yeah, the girl and I, we’re friends again. I think it will work this time because we know where we stand… and things have changed. We’ll see.