I keep killing myself in school. I have a test in a bit, I should be studying right now. I have this big project in English, it is a project about as big as the Junior Thesis (for those of us in LBUSD), so I mean, it’s not the hugest thing ever, but it takes a lot of research.
The term “hanging out” (when it pertains to a guy) confuses me.
Man. Found a real good apartment, but have lost a possible roommate and another is not sure if she can do it. Grrr.
Sorry, this was more of just my personal rant. School needs to be OVER.
I worked a midshift yesterday at work, I liked it, it was easy. No need to wake up early like when you open and deal with all the customers then (I’m still traumatized, I don’t like morning shifts, especially on Saturday), no need to stay there way late to finish a huge checklist of closing chores. Just go there at noon, make some chocolate milks, clean the syrup pumps, make a few drinks, start on the closing chores, and you are off at 5.
Okay done.
I love how elated a certain guy can make me feel. I hate how worried thinking about the same guy can make me feel too.
I went to the Los Angeles Times/UCLA Festival of Books today. It was fun, I’m a nerd, so looking at books was a good time. I went to a discussion too… it was okay, not the best thing ever. It was presented well though. Afterward I stayed with some people from my English class to work on some research for our final projects at the Powell library there at UCLA. It was so good to finally feel a sense of direction with my project and get some books out that would help me with the project. It was also good to get to know some of the people in the Honors program more, it made me feel smart to talk with them (however dumb that may sound). In all honesty, it was a good day. Different than I expected it to be but still wonderful; some new friendships were formed and strengthened over coffee after it was all done with. I found out that my English teacher (he’s also the honors program coordinator) thinks that I would be good (along with two of the other people I spent time with today) to help organize things for the program next year. It was nice to hear that, I would not have expected him to say that, but it was encouraging.
2005 is turning out to be fantastic. I wish I could figure certain people out, but it’s part of the excitement of this stage of a relationship, right? Right.
So apparently there’s been a lot of tension tonight on livejournal, eh? I’m not going to get into the middle of something that isn’t mine, but I have to say that it’s pretty silly how big things got. But whatever.
I for one had a good day, and I don’t mean that in a haha you guys didn’t kind of way. I just mean it in a my manager and I had a nice talk kind of way, I finally had a night of decent tips, I got to see friends at work, and I got to hang out with a certain guy after work. Everything felt so natural. Okay, I’m tired.
And suddenly everything is coming together.
Everything is still up in the air, but it is looking like moving out and getting an apartment can be more of a reality! I’m so excited! I mean a good friend says she wants to get an apartment together, then another girl is looking for a place, and another is looking to move out soon, and it’s all happening at the same time. And my parents are actually okay with it! They were saying that it might be better for me to move out before I go to CSULB (if I go there), because I can see if living away from home is too much of an issue financially, emotionally, etc. But yeah, if things work out, this could be happening fairly soon. I hope it works.
So far the best deal I’ve seen is a freaking 2 BEDROOM 2 BATHROOM 2 STORY TOWNHOUSE for only $1375… so with utilities and all that jazz it’ll be just under $400 each, and that’s doable, even with our coffee shop jobs.
Ugh, speaking of which, they’re going to make us wear hats soon =( Not identical hats for everybody, but we’ll have to have a hat of some sort and I don’t like hats so much. But that isn’t the point.
The point is that this might actually happen.
HA! So remember those 8 essays that I have been complaining about for the past like… month and a half? I found out yesterday that I just have to do a museum visit and write up, and I can skip all of those essays, and I will still have a B in that class. And yesterday the instructor talked the whole time about different museums we could visit, so needless to say, it was an easy class. This information calmed me down a lot though, now I only need to worry about a project in English, but I’m going to the UCLA festival of books and then to the library with a bunch of people from my class on Sunday, so that’ll be cool. Oh crap, except I just realized that probably won’t happen because of work. Haha. Okay, well it’s still a relief, I just have to worry about one class.
That brings us down to 3 weeks of classes left (not counting classes tomorrow), plus one week in which I take 2 finals. Not too bad at all. And then, we can bring on the summer.
So yesterday Christina and I got together to “plan and make a survey,” but neither completely happened. We sort of listened to music (What’s my name? ARE YOU ELLIE?), sort of watched Gilmore Girls (I wasn’t completely focused, but let me tell you, it seemed like a completely random episode), made wanna be english breakfast tea lattes (with cute milk), bought a pie (mmm), watched I want a famous face while eating the pie (watching some girl get cut open kind of made us lose interest in the pie), played with kittens (yes, I will admit that they were cute), and did a bunch of fun things like that. Good times.
I need an oil change and a car wash, and I needed both a few months ago. I should really take care of those things.
Today was pretty swell. Pretty swell.
I started out having breakfast with my mom, which was fun. We got to talk and catch up with each other’s “going-ons” of the week, but I didn’t eat much. I should have, it was an all you can eat breakfast bar.
For a while it looked like I was going to have to work, which was killing me because I for once actually had plans, and they were with Amy, and we rarely are off of work at the same time. But it got worked out, so we were able to continue as planned.
Amy came by my house and we headed out to los angeles for some shopping. We went to Melrose, which was cool. At parts it was wierd because a lot of stuff reminded me of Nate, and when he and I would go there. But it was still fun anyway. We took one picture 
that I really like, I don’t know why I do. Things were so great with Amy, I’ve come to the belief that we’re each other’s long lost sisters. There may be little things that we get all girly stupid over with each other, but in the end, we understand each other SO SO much.
After shopping, we came to Long Beach, and we went to the pike. Stopped in at Cold Stone. It’s shocking how many things have changed since I left. There were 4 new people, a bunch of new ice cream flavors… yeah. My friend Jenna still gave us my 50% discount. Love her. OH OH OH, but AKWARD MOMENT. Remember Chris? From like… 2 years ago? I still see him on a fairly regular basis, but I saw him at the pike and he saw me, and he was with some chick. I didn’t care about the other girl, but it was just wierd because the few times we went out, we went to the movies at the pike. And yeah. Just seeing him and thinking that I used to like him was interesting, especially because we saw each other right as he was in the process of putting his arm around her… yeah. Anyway.
We headed back to her house and got dolled up. Then we went back to los angeles to see a band that one of her friends was in, Still Life Cinema. They played at the Troubadour, but it ended up sucking because we were only there for about half an hourish, yet we played 10 bucks to get in. Plus parking. Looking back, the whole going home and coming back thing was kind of silly, we should have just brought along stuff and stayed in los angeles. I had so much fun though. I love talking to Amy, we agreed that in a yearish we’ll probably get an apartment together… probably with two others.
Seriously though, today, so much fun. It might not seem like the most eventful day, but it was great. Oh yeah, things I bought… I bought this shirt that I have been eyeing for over a year (literally)… I kept telling myself that if I liked it in a while I’d buy it. Today it hit me that I’ve been looking at it for a long time so I finally bought it. I also got some earrings and a pair of cheap wannabe Chanel sunglasses, yes, the ones I am sporting in the picture up there. And another tank top. Perty perty things, I love them all.
I’m real tired now.
Seriously, I need to get my act together and just catch up at school. It’s looking like I have eight three-page short essays for history (I turned some of the old ones in, but not all, and then some new ones were just assigned), another short essay for english, 12 chapters of history notes to turn in, a mandatory counselor appointment to attend (for the honors program), and a mandatory teacher meeting (everybody has to have one for one of my classes).
Today I was offered a job at the coffee bean. They pay more than at the establishment I work at. And they have a variety of tea lattes (today I got english breakfast. delicious) made from looseleaf tea, not just one tea latte made from syrup. And they have benefits and such. Those things make it appealing, but I still love the people that I work with to death. I can tell that everybody sort of hates each other at coffee bean, it’d be my job at coldstone creamery all over again. Two of my good friends from work are thinking about leaving soon though. One’s moving, the other is possibly transferring to another IAG. So that’ll be sad.
I miss a lot of you guys. I want to take a trip up to Santa Barbara and drive daily to Garden Grove and hang out every day, but life tries to keep us all apart. Not counting tomorrow, there’s only 5 weeks left until school is done and summer is here, I cannot wait. I’m thinking we need to go crazy this year. Amusement parks. Beaches & bonfires. Road trips of short and longer distances. Los Angeles and Hollywoold, Amoeba, Santa Monica, Melrose. Orange County. Tents, Waterfalls, and “the village people,” we know what kind of trip I’m talking about here (we’ll pass on the 30 year old men). Sleepovers. Pizza. Bring it On, Mean Girls, Zoolander, and anything else we can get our hands on; doing the dances and reciting the scenes from the movies are a given. Plenty of pictures; digital and film. Bringing in new friends because more can always be fun. Keeping it to the original friends, because the old times are good too. Concerts, shows, and going out dancing. Staying in dancing. Coffee shops, eating out, nights on the town. Like I said, I cannot wait.
Argh. I think I might be setting myself up for dissapointment again, I feel like such a little middle schooler. I’m all over the place with my emotions, and everything seems so trivial. I seem to go for the guys who are “players.” I’m not even talking about mike, I was able to get over that crush a few weeks ago. But now there’s somebody else and I keep telling myself not to get excited, I don’t need a relationship right now, etc. But somebody’s nice to me and makes me feel special and I start thinking about us, but I still have this fear that he does the same for any and all girls. And it’s probably a justified fear. I don’t know. I feel so dumb.
I also feel dumb because I have so much late work for school. Stuff that is over a month due.
I sent my prom dress to the cleaners about a month ago just to get it cleaned up, one of my friends was going to use it for a formal, but she didn’t end up going… I should have picked it up weeks ago, hopefully I’ll be able to get it back.
Today I went on a field trip with a bunch of 1st graders, we went to the California Science Center. Then I worked a 7 hour shift. My only times sitting down today were on the 15 minute car ride to the school and the 15 minute bus ride to the center. from 6 in the morning until midnight. Sorry, complaining mood to the max.
I feel so wierd. I’m listening to Usher, for goodness sake. What causes one to do that?!? I got it bad. And that was bad. Argh goodnight.
Actual conversation just held by my mother and I:
mom: I like Lorelai.
me: Ok. Um. I like Rory?
mom: I like Emily.
me: I like Jess.
mom: I like Richard.
me: I like Sookie.
mom: I… don’t like that guy from the hotel.
me: Michel.
mom: Yeah. I don’t even like his name.
me: That’s nice.
mom: It’s such a bad name. Oh! Oh I know! I like Paris!
me: I like Christopher.
mom: I like…
me: You like Dean.
mom: No! Dean is bad!
me: No, Jess is bad, you like Dean.
mom: Fine, I like Dean.
me: Okay.
mom: No. Actually, the only ones I realy like are Lorelai, Rory, Luke, and Dean.
me: You don’t like Christopher?
mom: No, because he didn’t mary Lorelai when he got her pregnant.
me: He was fine with getting married, Lorelai didn’t want to get married.
mom: Really? Okay, i don’t like Lorelai anymore, she should have gotten married. :goes into speech about getting married if you’re popping out kids:
Yeah, we need a new hobby (by the way, she’s only seen seasons 2 and 3). I went to breakfast today with my mom. It was nice, we agreed that we’re going to try to do it every Saturday.
Not so much has happened in the past week. School started up again, I am still real behind in history, I worked a lot of hours this week, and that’s about it. Oh and yesterday I went shopping for the first time in forever. I bought 13 shirts, 3 pairs of shorts, and one skirt. I sort of said that I was not going to buy any clothes this year, but when I realized my clothes were all getting nasty, I gave in to the temptation. I have FINALLY finished paying back my parents for getting my car fixed in December. After the check I wrote them and yesterday’s shopping trip, I have $200 left that I have officially earned for my using at my coffee shop job. Which is going well, by the way.
