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I seriously suck! It’s barely my third week of school, and I’m already missing classes because I’m tired and still need to finish a butt load of homework. Bad bad Esther.

For my speech class (it’s actually group communications) we had to make up a game, and ours includes music from different eras. Everybody in my group had to make a mix CD, and I got the 70s, so I keep just listening to it over and over again. It has stuff from grease, jackson 5, and john lennon among others, and… that’s just trouble for me. I have a weakness for this kind of music.

And for some reason I keep looking at furniture from ikea. I just redid my room in the summer, so I don’t know why. I need to read a bunch right now and write a bunch. And I’m supposed to be in piano. Gah.

FRESHMAN YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL
[What year was it?]
2000-2001

[What were your three favorite bands?]
umm… I was real into six pence none the richer. I would say ‘ha,’ but I still like their music, so it works.

[What was your favorite outfit?]
I don’t know really, most of my clothes sucked, since it was my first year out of uniforms. I remember I had these black pants and this “duster” (overcoat thing) that I loved to wear with this light blue shirt underneath, but the pants and the sweater got stolen, so… I don’t know.

[What was up with your hair?]
Hahaha… I had just gone through the mistake of using “sun-in” on my hair, so it was a wierd light brown/reddish type of color. And it was mostly up in a pony tail.

[Who were your best friends?]
Monica and Nathalie.

[What did you do after school?]
I ran a lot for cross country. And then Terry and I would go to tutoring for geometry, and then we’d go to Aimee’s house with Adam.

[Where did you work?]
There was no time for work.

[Did you take the bus?]
Yes, and I hated every moment of it. Especially the walk home from the bus stop, I mean when you’ve just ran 8 miles, the 5 blocks to get home aren’t fun.

[Who did you have a crush on?]
haha. not too many people know this, but I really liked Tyler Brown freshman year for some reason.

[Did you fight with your parents?]
not at all. well maybe a little bit when I wanted to go out somewhere, but I rarely hung out with friends outside of school, so that wasn’t too common. school seriously occupied a large portion of my time.

[Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?]
Man… I seriously cannot remember. My sophmore year I really liked Shane West and Joel Madden, lol, but freshman year? I do not know.

[Did you smoke cigarettes?]
No

[Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day because you were too nervous to find your locker?]
Haha, I actually had a locker. Some guy in Cross Country broke a lot of the lockers and gave us the combinations to them, but mine was in a building that I had no classes in.

[Did you have a 'clique'?]
Somewhat, for the second part of the school year.

[Did you have "The Max" like Zach Kelly and Slater?]
Not really, we went to the McDonalds and Jack in the Box a few blocks away from Millikan a lot after XC practice, but we didn’t hang out and dance there or anything.

[Admit it, were you popular?]
Not at all!

[Who did you want to be just like?]
Nobody.

[What did you want to be when you grew up?]
Elementary School teacher.

[Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now?]
At CSULB studying to become a teacher.

current clothing – denim capris and a blue tank top

current mood – passive
current taste – I just ate a sandwich, so that.

current hair – back to it’s natural dark brown and curly state.

current annoyance – That I want to stop working at coldstone, but I don’t want to go through the actual quitting process. I’ll feel bad.

current smell – nothing.

current thing you ought to be doing – I should be reading.

current jewelry – I just took out all of my ear rings last night, so it’s back to my one cartlige piercing.

current book – Vergil’s Aneid (school) and Anna Karenina (pleasure)

current refreshment – WATER, wooo!

current worry – that I’m going to put my two weeks notice in tonight.

current favorite celebrity – I don’t really have one right now.

current longing – some sleep would be good.

current music – my motown party mix. shut up, lol.

current wish – to know what my major will be and what school I will transfer to.

current lyric in your head – nothing

current makeup – nothing.

current desktop picture – too lazy to make a screen shot and upload it, sorry.

current plans for tonight/weekend – work/quit at coldstone!

current cuss word du jour – none.

current disappointment – I’d reather not say.

current amusement – my lame music.

current IM/person you’re talking to – I’m being AIM-antisocial.

current avoidance – the internet.

So my last living grandparent, my grandmother passed away last night. I feel real bad for my Dad, his parents were great and they were real close… I can’t even imagine having to go around today and make ‘arrangements’ for my parents.

I dont really have much else to say other than that. I guess I haven’t taken the time to really reflect on all of this, and however selfish it may be, I cannot afford to until the weekend, I’ll be too busy before then to be sad. That’s what we get as an update.

From Saturday morning at 5:30am until now (12:20am late monday/early tuesday) I have put in over 30 hours of work between Coldstone and It’s a Grind. My feet are killing me, but I need the money. I owe my dad the almost $1000 he gave me to fix my car, and my mom $400 for my tuition. And I owe myself a lot from the new york trip.

Anyway, I don’t know what to do. I obviously cannot keep working like this and need to do something, but I like both of the jobs and cannot decide which one to keep. It’ll be interesting to see what happens.

On Saturday night, amidst all my working and (lack of) sleeping, Nate took me out to Lucille’s. It was a good time, and it was pretty relaxing to just spend some time together. We’ve spent very little time together since… before Christmas, so we’re trying to make that change. It was hard on us this weekend though, what with working, and then he had a huge project that was stressing him out and unfortunately all of this stuff caused some problems between us. Things are better as of now though, so that is good.

Tomorrow I’m eating bagels and muffins and cinnamon rolls for breakfast. It’s kind of funny how I always end up with jobs that produce weight gain (sitting in front of a computer, making ice cream that is over 1000 calories a serving, or giving people coffee loaded with creams and syrups as well as baked goods loaded with icing and cream cheese). I love the things though, so it’s good none the less.

Thankyou, Livejournal for being down a whole day.

Today was my first real day making coffee and bagels and anything else that you can think of at It’s A Grind. I doubt I will ever go to a Starbucks again! I mean of course there’s the fact that I don’t have an employee discount at Starbucks, but there’s also the fact that their coffee isn’t all that great. And a lot of times they burn your milk instead of “stretching and rolling” it correctly. I mean I guess that they do try and get them out to you super quick so it is hard to really do everything, but ehh… I don’t know. Their caramel macchiato isn’t a macchiato, it’s a latte.

Then again, most of the It’s a Grinds are in Long Beach, and if not in Long Beach, they’re in California, and if not in California… there aren’t that many.

My point is that I woke up at 4:30 am this morning, went through work (it went by pretty fast though), took a nap, and now I am at Coldstones for the closing shift.

I can’t decide what to do. I can’t really handle working two jobs (since I get 20 or more at It’s a Grind), but if I quit Coldstones and only do coffee, I won’t be able to get free ice cream. That’s pretty bad that the only reason I want this job is for the food. But hey, if I ordered ice cream in the size I want and with all the mixins that I want without an employee discount, it’d cost way over $5, and that’s just not cool.

But thinking about doing the summer here again isn’t so fun either. It gets wayyyyyyyy too busy.

Yeah, I’m not writing anything of importance, but whatever.

You know what sucks? On mondays and wednesdays, I only have 40 minutes of school, while on tuesdays and thursdays I have 11 hours of school with no breaks in between classes. So this thursday will be fun when I wake up at 4:30am to go to work and won’t get a chance to eat or sleep or take a breath until 10pm. Oh yeah.

All my classes seem fun so far, bye.

I’m back home

We’re about to go to garden grove because my last grandparent is about to die. Her husband, my grandpa died over winter break when I was in sixth grade. I think it is because of this that I try so hard to get into a good Christmas mood, but nobody ever understands. I can’t enjoy this time of year even though I want to so much. I know I sound selfish right now, but I don’t want to think about how I’m about to go see my grandma in her last moments =(

I have to drive up to effin santa barbara afterward to drop my brother off at school.

Tomorrow I start school.

Today will suck.

Short post, yeah?

Today was the statue of liberty… we keep sleeping in so late!!! So we didn’t do much more as far as sightseeing goes.

But then we went to the ESPN zone to watch the orangebowl majig, it was pretty cool, big screen and all. Even though I am not a football person, it was fun to watch a team from back home win, and everybody was all pumped, so it was good times.

Tomorrow we are going to do some major shopping and hopefully go see Chicago.

I think we’re going to try to be on the today show, maury, or imx on thursday.

later.

Things are going well here in new york. We stayed out all night on saturday, and it seriously is “the city that never sleeps.” The lights were so bright and there were so many people out that you could have told me it was 4pm (since it gets dark here early) instead of 4am and I would have believed you.

We went to St. Patricks Cathedral in the morning, haha… I’m not catholic, but I wanted to see the inside of the building, and it was so gorgeous! I’m leaving a lot out, but I don’t want to bore everybody with those details. Let’s just say that Jessica and I always somehow manage to turn a normal time into an… interesting time.

Sunday was pretty boring, we were trying to adjust ourselves to eastern time, so we slept a lot. Didn’t work, we ended up staying up late and watching Napoleon Dynamite.

TODAY was awesome! It still feels so surreal to be here though! It’s like the four of us have been working towards this for the past 6 months, and to finally be here… it’s almost like we’re just sitting back and watching a movie play before our eyes. That’s not to say that we aren’t having fun. Today there was a lot of Central Park-ing. It was real pretty, and then it started raining, and rain=♥ so that was good. The bad news is that the whole time we were walking our way to the Metropolitan Museum of Art, we walked more than 50 blocks to get there, and it was closed… so yes, perhaps next time we should check the times before we embark on a journey like that.

So you want to hear what was the coolest thing? Rent is one of the musicals that we all definitely wanted to see on broadway, but we didn’t want to pay $90 for decent seats. They have this raffle system though, where we all put in our names, and 2 hours before the show they draw names for the front two rows, and the people who win only have to pay $20. We put our names in, but there were literally 150 people if not more who were there. We were all ready to be dissapointed, but Jessica and William’s cards got drawn! Each card was for two tickets, so we got to see one of the most popular shows on broadway for real cheap. Sweet. It was so good! Especially the music, I want to buy the soundtrack (if they’re called soundtracks when it’s a musical… and if there is one). Oh, and Drew Lachey was starring in it. I sort of expected his voice to be not so good (under the assumption that the CDs that 98 Degrees recorded was all digitally fixed and what not), but he was great. Oh, and that Frenchie girl from American Idol? I don’t know. I’m not somebody who is all into boy bands and american idol, but the whole cast was terrific, and ajl;ks;djagk it was awesome. The cast was like 5 feet away from us, good stuff.

Oh and we hit the semi-annual sale at victoria’s secret. The store was incredibly huge and INCREDIBLY packed! It was the hottest I have been here in new york.

I ate two happy meals today. I’ve never seen so many 24 hour McDonalds and Starbucks within a mile of each other.

Hope things are well with the rest of you!

Hello everybody! So I’m in New York right now. Or Newark. Yeah, that’s right, we’re too poor to get anything decent on Manhattan, so we get to sleep in New Jersey… good stuff.

Where to start, where to start. It feels so wierd because we left home on wednesday and it is now saturday, and we have hardly done anything. It’s okay though, we still have a full week left. Our trip here was pretty crappy. By the time we got to the airport here, Jessica and I were DEAD tired… we somehow managed to get from one airport to another, and then we caught an airport shuttle… aaah it was crazy, we were not awake! Anyway, yes, thursday was pretty lame, it was mostly us just sleeping.

Today was better. We slept in way later than we expected to, so by the time we got up it was already time to go to time square. We all got separated on the way there, but let me tell you, so much happened tonight! It was so crazy. We got separated from Melissa and William, but here’s just some of the stuff Jessica and I did tonight:
-we pretended we only spoke spanish to get past some police officers
-we snuck past police barracades (they didn’t want you to go ANYWHERE!)
-we went into a cultish church where they tried to get us to take this personality test. for some reason we tried to go upstairs, but we got in trouble. jessica used the men’s room. we got yelled at.
-we walked around a lot, found this “club,” went in to find out it was this real expensive restaurant, and left.
-we somehow got the attention of these random guys who wouldn’t leave us alone.
-we saw fireworks and didn’t even care (the actual countown was a pretty big dissapointment… we were just like.. oh.. 3.2.1? happy new year? aaah. :blowing of crappy horns:
-we walked around a bunch more and eventually met up with melissa and william
-it was trash day, so the different buildings had their trash bags out on the sidewalks. we walked past burberry and grabbed a bunch of boxes, bags, a garmet bag, and some other things out of that trash. yeah, that wasn’t exactly a proud moment, but I could sell those boxes on ebay! or give them away to people. hmm.
-we saw some guy get hit by a car and go flying 10 feet away, but he was pretty drunk and didn’t seem to care.

you can start to see that things were pretty interesting. oh, and things were warm! it was like 50 degrees! that’s warmer than the california nights have been recently! so that was good.

we got back to the hotel at around 4, reason being that we had planned on staying in the city until morning out of a fear of coming back to Newark at that time. it ended up working out though. and now it’s 5:30am on saturday morning. that’s just great, we’re going to be so tired tomorrow!

hope you all had a happy new year!