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I’m uninstalling AIM and everything for a while.

Things are a mess.

Calling will be the only way to be in contact with me.

Until sunday or further notice.

Thanksgiving was good, it really was the break I needed to just get me through till the end of finals. I can’t believe my first semester is almost over. But of course… Not before I kill myself with projects and papers and presentations, oh my!

Let’s see. Thursday we went up to pick my brother up from college. The drive from Long Beach to Santa Barbara seems to get longer and longer each time! But yes we got to our camping place, and it was SO nice! I was expecting it to be messed up and dirty or something, but no, it was great. We had our thanksgiving meal. Our prime rib owns all of the nasty turkey the rest of you had to eat!

I don’t think I’ll really go into too much detail of the whole trip. It was a good time with family, a good time for rest, and yes, a good time to get some homework out of the way. I also had a lot of time to think… there are so many things I mulled over. Most of my friendships and the direction where they’re going, stuff with me and Nathaniel, and stuff with my parents…. yeah. Kind of eyeopening, I guess.

I’m counting down until my last final, only… 17 more days. Actually, that’s quite a while. City college is not my friend.

Last night I was up late trying to write an essay and study for a test and all those fun things, and I had to get up early to finish everything. I was having trouble sleeping, so I turned on my television to search for some talk show (I was flipping through channels with my back turned away, just waiting till I got to something serious sounding), because those shows usually help me fall asleep. I stopped at the first talk show I heard and tried to fall asleep, but I guess I was unintentionally listening and I realized it was Natalie Portman doing Behind the Actor’s Studio on Bravo. Any progress I had begun to make towards falling asleep was immediately reversed, and I stayed up for an extra hour watching that.

Tonight my eyes are bloodshot from a lack of sleep for the past few nights. A lot of stuff has been going through my mind and I just can’t fall asleep. But again I am not being able to fall asleep. It sucks. I think I’m going to go to the doctor and get some… zoloft? I’ve always been kind of against that type of thing, but I was reading up at the Zoloft website, and it looks like it could help me. Then again they probably want everybody they can to get on Zoloft, so who knows. If I had to take those pills to feel better, I think I would be kind of disgusted at myself.

Whatever, sorry for the pointless posts lately.

Today was tiring, I had work at It’s a Grind and then at Cold Stones… yeah. I was basically standing from 11am until 7:30pm. It really wasn’t a bad time, just hard on the legs.

There are some days when I cannot wait to quit at Cold Stone, but then there are days like today when everything is so great, and I can’t see myself not working there. It was fun, for most of the time it was just Somatra, Sara and I, and it was fun… there were some slow moments, so we ordered a pizza, watched music videos, ate lots of ice cream, drank soda, made frozen banannas, and yeah, we didn’t deal with any bad customers. After 6, Sara and Somatra went home and it was me, Monica, Cornelio, and Adrianna. They put on the techno muzak CD and at first I was ready to die, but it ended up being fun. We were lame and put Tatu on real loud (for some reason everybody there has an obsession with the song “all the things she said”… it makes scooping more fun?), and were just hyper, dancing singing, jumping and yeah. Then I talked with Monica for a while about college and stuff (she’s a senior right now, so we were talking about where we were wanting to go and stuff), made a few ice creams, and then she put the Tatu song on again, and it was the same fun thing over again. The song is so repetitive. Yeah. I think I’m still overly hyper.

It was a good day though. I’m enjoying how winter slows thing down in the ice cream business.

All the things she said
Running through my head,
Running through my head!

I’m a dork.

Added at 12:04 AM after an attempt to fall asleep:
Random question:
Do you believe evil spirits and demons exist?
For some reason, (and I do not in any way mean this in a racial way or anything), I have noticed that more Asian and Hispanic people have a tendancy to believe in them than say… “white” people. I am half hispanic half white. So don’t anybody go getting offended.

I do believe they exist. For example, just now, I felt a tremendous evil near me. My dogs were barking in different directions, I could feel sort of a… heavy feeling? I can’t explain it. But I have heard that you can order demons and evil spirits away, so I did that, and I soon started to feel better, my skin went un-prickly, my dogs stopped barking, and everything was good again.

You all probably think I’m crazy. But what can I say? I’ve heard some creepy tales, tales from people who wouldn’t lie about that type of thing. My mom, for example, would never lie about that. Or one of my friends had a bad experience at a place he used to live.

Anyway. I am glad that feeling went away, but still I think that when I finally do fall asleep tonight, it will have a nightmare or two.

Leave it to me to ruin a good time with Naters. We were enjoying our time together… we had lunch (him) / coffee (me) at this pretty park, and then I started talking about disneyland. I don’t even know why I want to go so badly. I’m dumb. He has a right to be upset, afterall, he took on a job he hates for me and has earned a lot of money so far because of the sucky job, and so obviously he doesn’t want to spend his hard-earned-in-a-sucky-way money by going to a place that he thinks is boring. And we sort of had an arguement except I just got mad. I called him and he’s down. He’s gonna come over later for a bit before he goes to work, but today was supposed to be good, and I ruined it.

I’m sorry.

I had a dream that Chistina and Dani and I went driving randomly, and we ended up in a tiny town, and it turned out we were just an hour or so away from Las Vegas, so we ended up driving there to eat some cheap food, and then we took a plane home. Fun stuff. I didn’t sleep well though, I woke up and all my pillows (we’re talking 5 pillows) as well as a remote control (which has yet to be found) were on the floor. I think I freaked out in my sleep, but I don’t remember any bad dreams or anything. Strange.

I registered for next semester’s courses:
Journalism 10 – Introduction to Mass Communications
Speech 10 – Introduction to Public Speaking
History 10 – Early American History (Colonial – Reconstruction)
Psychology 1 – Introduction to Psychology
English 3H – Honors Argumentative/Critical Writing
…adding up to a total of 16 units. Hooray for getting general education requirements out of the way.

This will leave me with only Biology and some electives (I’m thinking another music class and some more Journalism or English classes. A literature class and the newspaper?) for the next semester, and then I will be DONE with community college! I still need to figure out what University I will transfer to.

My Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed moment of the day:

I went to this Panel discussion thing for Anthropology, and at this event they were giving out free food. I grabbed a doughnut and a cup of coke and headed for my seat. Somebody came up to the podium to remind us to turn off our cell phones, so I leaned over to reach for my purse, dropping my cup of coke in the process. It got all over my backpack and some other girl’s paper, and it was pretty bad. I tried to clean up as best as I could, and then opened my purse to turn off my cellphone, and… of course my phone and the entire contents of my purse fell out onto the tile floor. All I could think was “crap crap crap!” so I shoved everything back into my purse, and sat back up, only to find that the whole time I was leaning over my glazed doughnut, and I had white crap smeared across my boobs for the rest of the day.

So all of that was not so fun. On the upside, nobody seemed to notice any of this, I was wearing a zip up sweater which was able to hide the white crusties on my black shirt, and these 30 seconds were the worst part of my day, so things weren’t actually that bad today.

I went to the CSULB library to renew my overdue books. Yikes. My fines are $6.75 per book, and I have 10 books out, you do the math. Since I don’t actually have any intentions of going to CSULB, I’m thinking of leaving the money unpaid for. But since I might go to a Cal State, I’m afraid the fees might transfer to other campuses.

I don’t have English tomorrow, and though it is my favorite class, I am excited because I get to go out to lunch with Nate instead! I think we’re at a new stage in our relationship. Everything is out in the open and honest, and even though we’re driving each other up the wall, its all in good fun. I think we’re gonna go to disneyland soon. Or mountain biking. Things are great though, so I am happy, even if at times I may seem like I’m not =)

Gilmore Girls was fun tonight. Weasels. Har har har. I wish they showed Logan though, I like him for Rory.

I was supposed to see Something Corporate today at the HOB Sunset Strip, but I am not anymore.
Normally, this would upset me, but not today, because I get to see them at CHAIN REACTION on thursday! It’ll be like having them in my living room or something, because it’s so tiny. And it’s 11/11 which is an important date to the band? And at the venue that started it all for them. So I’m excited. Christina aka Moodies is at the show tonight though, so I’m excited to hear how it goes!

Since I will be at home tonight, you can guess what I’ll be doing around 8pm. Hint? Gilmore Girls.

That was from last week. But seriously, I’ve had this wierd thing for the longest time where I want to jump off something with an umbrella. And then I saw this episode. And wee.

Anyway, I know, I’m a loser if I have time to make that picture. Oh well.

Yesterday I went to Irvine with my friend Somatra to visit Susana and Sitha. It was cool to see their apartment and talk and then they all played me a song and yeah. Good times!

Oh, and in case anybody was wondering, I’m doing better, I think I’ll be unsick by tomorrow or thursdayish.

Since saturday of last week my health has progressively gotten worse. On wednesday and thursday I felt the most pain, but even so, I was not coughing very much. Starting yesterday though, my cough got pretty bad, and it’s still terrible. Last night even though I took Nyquil (which some of you might remember, has had the tendancy to knock me out completely and allow me to enjoy some very strange dreams) I slept horribly. My coughing kept waking me up around every thirty minutes. And it was bad. By laying down I was making it harder for me to breathe and then I’d start choking and coughing and yeah. Bad.

So today I was grouchier than necessary, but I am still kind of bugged.

And three people asked me today where I am planning on going after lbcc, and arghh I really do not know! There are so many places to consider. Grr. But I did appreciate people asking me, it showed they care.

I want to go to Oregon so bad. And Nate and his cousins might be going over winter break. I would be pretty excited about the opportunity to go, but I’ll be in New York. I mean, I’m still excited about New York, but I wish I could go to Oregon too. It’s like. If they go during Christmas I can’t go because I should be with my family then, but if they leave after Christmas, there won’t be much time for me to come back, seeing how I need to be on a plane on December 30. So that made me grouchy too? Guess you can’t win them all.

Sorry guys, I know the last thing anybody needs to read is a long tale by cranky sick girl, but I felt like at least writing something.

At the risk of being attacked by all but two of my lj friends, I am actually pleased by the results of the election. Life goes on for you, and yes, I’d be telling myself the same thing if Kerry had won. Half of Americans hate the other half, and that does worse for our country than what Kerry or Bush could do. I’m tired of everybody talking about how terrible America is. As another LJ user pointed out: “do you all really think he’s capable of ruining the economy, which is now growing, the job gains, which are now growing, and the war on iraq, which is slowly but surely gaining closure?” I’m not saying that everybody needs to be estatic about Bush. But it’s only fair for Bush to be president, that’s how the votes turned out.

Anyway. I just hope everybody can calm down and realize that things will be okay. If it makes you feel any better (and I know it doesn’t), we’ve been due for a party realignment for over 6 years now, and the Republican realignment was bound to happen, its just the cycle that a democracy has to go through. Roughly every 30 years there is a new party alignment, so… yeah. Give it another 30 years and maybe things’ll be how you like it.

But lets move onto the more important matters at hand. My name and a paragraph about me was on the second page of the newspaper this morning! And I didn’t come off as a moron, so I am fine with it. I missed political science today which I was real upset about. I would have wanted to really really go, to discuss the election and the voter turn out and my sudden burst of wanna-be fame… but no. There were some issues involving keys, my car, a creepy guy who was talking to an area below my face but who was nice enough to call AAA for me, me waiting on a corner for AAA, having the creepy guy come back and “offer some assistance” and asking me to go in his car so that he could take me back to my car where the AAA guy was already at, me saying no, him asking me again, me saying i’m fine, him TELLING me to get in, me TELLING him I’d walk, getting my car opened up, and realizing that it was time for me to go to my job training (I was going to have to leave early anyway which I was bummed about, but I was expecting to at least go for 20 or 30 minutes). My day was full of irony in so many more ways, but I don’t think I’ll go into anymore detail than what is obviously already too much.