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hahaha… I got good results from this one =)

Secret Celebrity Love Affair by MsTyrannical
Username
Color
Husband	Tom (MxPx)
Lover	Jesse (Brand New)
Times	23
Husbands Reaction	Blamed himself
Created with quill18‘s MemeGen 3.0!

oooh yeah.

edit:
and here’s another, just for kicks.

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:	Broken Sidewalks for Empty Planets
You sound like:	The Starting Line
You will be signed to:	Vagrant Records
Your emo lyrics are:	“Listen to my bleeding heartbeat and understand how sad I am right now”
Name:
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I wouldn’t mind =)

my whole right side is sore =( I’ll survive though.

In other news,
[spell your first name backwards] rehtse
[age] 17
[where do you live] long beach
[wallet] My cigarette case thing. I have an actual wallet, but the case is smaller and better.
[hairbrush] black/metallic
[jewelry worn daily] ehh one earing in each ear
[pillow cover] sea foam green.
[coffee cup] I don’t have one which is specifically mine
[shoes] various flip flops, 3 colors of chucks, 2 colors of jack purcells, a bunch of black dress shoes, pink dress shoes, black checkered vans slip ons
[cologne/perfume] I wish I had “ralph” by ralph lauren, but I’m a cheapo
[piercings] Left: 5 in zigzag pattern in lobe. Right: 4 in zigzag pattern, 1 cartilage
[clothes youre wearing now] dark capris, blue shirt

MIXED QUESTIONS:
[wishing] I never had to do homework, and that spring break would hurry up and get here
[after this] do some chores and hw
[talking to] nobody
[fetishes] hmm… I’m not sure
[some of your fav. movies] a lot
[something youre looking forward to in the upcoming months] spring break, prom, graduation, shows… maybe a road trip? That’d be fun… who’s with me?
[last thing you ate] chicken fingers and curly fries
[something you're hella afraid of] flying objects, earthquakes, automobile accidents
[if you could have any animals as pets what would they be] just mah dogs.
[three cities you wouldn't mind relocating to] LA, nyc, and… somewhere else.
[some of your fav. foods] Spaghetti, spaghetti, and spaghetti
[something you wish you could understand better] why some people are stupid.
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time.] well… I haven’t talked to Annie in a long time. I mean, really talked. And I know we’ve both got a lot of stuff to share.

DO YOU…:
[like candles] yes
[like incense] only nagchampa
[believe in love] certainly
[believe in soulmates] ehh… that two people were meant for each other, yes. I dunno about… EVERYTHING that a soulmate entails though.
[believe in love at first sight] attraction at first sight, yes, and it could turn into love. But you don’t love somebody from the first second you see them.
[believe in forgiveness] jesh
[want to get married] of course
[want to have kids] yeah… 4? I dunno about that anymore though. Maybe just 2. Or 1. muahahaha.
[believe that you know the person that you'll marry at this point in time] who knows.

IN THE LAST 24 HRS HAVE YOU:
[cried] I think I’ve managed to avoid that for once.
[bought something] food.
[gotten sick] I’m just sore.
[sang] sure.
[eaten] yes.
[felt stupid] hmm… probably. Oh yeah. I told the little kids that Moses built the ark. Not so bright, lol.
[wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't] not really.
[met someone new] yes.
[moved on] I don’t believe there’s been anything to move on from.
[talked to an ex] yeah…
[missed an ex] yeah… but I don’t really consider him my ex since we’re talking.
[talked to someone you have a crush on] surely
[had a serious talk] yeah
[missed someone] i guess
[hugged someone] yes
[fought with your parents] a little, nothing big though
[dreamt about someone you can't be with] nah

SOCIAL LIFE:
[best girl friend(s)] those who I can talk to.
[best guy friend(s)] Nate, Jason, Stephen, Sam
[boyfriend/girlfriend] no…
[hobbies] doing fun stuff?
[pager/cell] cell
[are you the center of attention or wallflower] depends on the situation.
[car you drive] my EJ
[would you rather be with friends or on a date] how about… both?
[job] Planning to get one after spring break
[like being around people] of course, but some alone time is good too.

WHO…:
[have you known the longest] monica
[do you argue with the most] ehhhh I don’t know. Or I do, but I don’t want to say.
[do you always get along with people] yeah, except that person ^^^ sometimes that person really frustrates me
[who is the most trustworthy] hmm… Nathaniel
[who makes you laugh the most] Dani
[who is the nicest girl(s)] Annie, Robin
[who is the nicest guy(s)] Nathaniel, Jason
[who has the coolest parent(s)] I have wierdly amusing ones, lol
[who has the coolest sibling(s)] ehh I guess Monica, Nathaniel, Stephanie, and Elijah, I like ‘em all.
[who is the most blunt] Linda
[is the smartest] I dunno. Some people are smart, just not dedicated, so it’s hard to tell for sure.

PERSONAL:
[who is your role model] —
[pet peeves] stubborn people.
[ever liked someone you had no chance with] haha, sure. A 19 year old when I was 14… Joel… Mike…
[ever lied to your best friend] yeah… mostly not about serious stuff, and when it was serious, just me saying that everything was fine, when they weren’t.
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you] no.
[cried over the opposite sex] meh… not really.
[have a certain "type" of person you go after] Not really.
[rather be dumper or dumped] neither
[rather have a relationship or "hook-up"] relationship
[what is your fav. part of your physical appearance] I don’t know
[what is your fav. part of your emotional being] I don’t know
[are you happy with yourself] I’m not devastated
[are you happy with your life] yes
[if you could change one thing what would it be] dunno

taken from various people.

oh yeah, and I’m considering going to a community college. I don’t care which one. But I’m suddenly unsure of what I want to do, and I’d rather waste money there than at a big university? I don’t know where I’ll end up. I feel like I’ll be looked down upon, but oh, well.

I’m not saying that I am going to a community college. Just that going to one suddenly has gained its appeal. It’d make my parents happy, at any rate. Don’t know where though… lbcc, cerritos, el camino, harbor city, cypress, golden west… smcc….

It’s amazing to me how I can let things get to me. But it’s my future that I’m talking about? So I think it’s okay if I’m all stressed out about it.

ok, a warning before you read this post, it’s another one of my college/growing up/moving out/wonder where I’m gonna be in 6 months type of thing.

First of all, I got a new idea the other day. What if I become a substitute teacher/free-lance web designer? I’d get to work whenever I want to. Wahoo. I know, I know, it wouldn’t work, I’d be poor and unable to afford the standard of living I want to have. It’d be cool though, wouldn’t it?

Now, as far as the moving out thing… I still really want to. I do think that come next fall, I’ll either be living in that room in fullerton that was offered to me, or else I’ll get an apartment? Ehh, maybe live on campus, but student housing is scarce at fullerton. In either case, I need to get my behind into the work place. And if I get an apartment, find myself some people to live with. Because I don’t want to live alone… maybe at some point I will, but i don’t want to leave home and suddenly be alone.

There’s still the issue of my parents and how they think I want to abandone them. To be honest… they’re making me pay for my crap from now on, so I’m basically doing things on my own, so I don’t see why I even bother staying at home? I mean, they dont charge me for room and board, lol, but… I pay for everything else myself. And I still think it’d be a good experience to break free and live life on my own? Who knows. They’re all for me going to live in fullerton. If it’s in that specific place they were telling me about. And if I live ina dorm, I think they’d be ok with that too. I dunno. I’ll shut up now, I doubt anybody seriously cares where I’m living next year. Everybody’s going through changes and all that crap, and I’m no different. Everybody has themselves to worry about. It’d be cool if somebody wanted to worry about it with me and get an apartment with me though. Ok, shutting up for real this time.

Is anybody surprised… that we talked again? And that I’m more confused than ever? It’s ok though. I’m hoping things will just work out naturally, because that would make me most happy. I think that unless we get into some random big arguement or something (which isn’t going to happen, lol) I want him to go to prom with me. As long as he agrees to go… but I think he will. We’ll keep talking, and I’ll keep posting about it, I suppose.

I am so fickle!

Man, I can’t stand myself. I was all thinking that I wanted something with Nate, but now I don’t know again.

I think. I just. want to be. friends.

Watch me change my mind in an hour though. I need to figure out how to make my mind up. But since our “talk” a few sundays ago, I’ve felt like we’re at a good place. I mean, things are kind of akward, but they are at a good place as far as us just being friends.

The sadie hawkins thing came up, and no, we’re not going, and I’m relieved.

I still need to figure out what I want for prom. What if… most of us don’t get dates. And we just go as a big group of losers? …it could work! Nobody HAS to have a date. laksjdlgjlaksdjg

You know what? I still have chris’s hat! ACK! I have to give it back, but I don’t want to be like… here’s your hat, sorry I kept it 3 extra months. =/
Retarded. That’s what I am!

First things first… I got my prom dress. A bit early, I know. But I’m not the first one to get mine, and there’s only 2 months left. They’re already starting to go. Anyway, here it is:

the lighting is terrible, the dress looks more pinkish/peachish than lavender.
I didn’t think I’d get a pink dress, but I like it, so yay!

I wonder if I’ll have somebody to hang out with it in or if I’ll be hanging out at prom alone? We shall see. Watch me not even go after I’ve already bought it. That’d suck.

Still no word from Fullerton. I’m calling them on Monday to see what’s up. I hope I get in. Even though I know it’d take a tard to not get in… I’m still worried. I did get my report card though. I’m not doing so well, but I’m passing everything and only have one C, so I’ll survive.

When I came home from shopping with my Mom, I did some homework, and then my Dad said he wanted to talk to me. At first I got all freaked out that I did something wrong, but it turned out to be kind of interesting…

So today he went to some conference for church stuff, and he talked with this one lady… our families were both missionaries in Guatemala at the same time, so I’ve known them literally, all my life. And their oldest daugher lives in LB so I see her weekly and all that. Anyway, they hadn’t talked for a long time, so he was telling about our family and how I’m graduating and planning on going to Fullerton next year (if only they’d accept me! grr), and she commented that I could live with them if I wanted to. They live in Placentia, less than 2 miles from the campus. They have a big house with only 2 kids left in it. I think it’d be awesome to not have to deal with traffic and all, but I’m kind of in shock, because I was pretty much expecting to be living at home next year. And I mean, it’s not all for sure that I’m going to live with them, but it’d really be a good arrangement. I dunno though. I don’t know if it’d be me living there “full time” and just come home once a week, or just live there maybe 3 days a week when I have school, or what. Or if I’d do it at all. Fullerton’s not THAT far. But it’d be a lot better on gas and time. =/ I dunno

I hope everything works out okay.

Tomorrow is Six Flags, I’m excited, even though I’m not sure if I’m driving or if Dani’s driving, or if we both are, or what. But it’s ok, it’ll be cool.

Now I have to go work on my outline. Gah!

Ready? *okay* So… Nate and I had our little talk. It didn’t turn out exactly as I thought it would, but I think it still went well, and I’m greatful for that.

A week ago, after Monica’s party and all, we agreed that we needed to talk in person (instead of online) about where we were going with stuff, but that we wouldn’t be able till after the whole musical thing. Well the last showing for the musical was yesterday, so it was now time to talk.

At church, we hung out a little, but we didn’t talk, and we left at different times, so we couldn’t talk afterwards. In the afternoon we were like… ok, we’ll hang out and talk. So we went to Marina Pacifica and spent like an hour at tower records just going through movies, albums, magazines, posters, all of that. He bought himself a cd and bought me an incubus tape for my car. Things sort of started to go wrong already because we were like… getting to close without talking yet. We were avoiding it, and started to go back home, but then we went to wherehouse music, because I was still looking for stuff. We were in there for maybe 20 minutes or so, and then we left. We were about to go home again, but then he was like, “we still have to talk.” So… we talked.

OH MY GOODNESS. It was so akward. We’d never talked like that. It took us forever to say what needed to get said. Basically… we don’t think that it’d work to be more than friends right now. It’s wierd because we let things happen when we’re together, and we both know we can’t let ourselves do that if we don’t want to screw things up. We’re going to see how this all goes. Maybe after a while we’ll decide if we want to be together, but maybe we won’t. We’ll just have to wait. As of now… we don’t really have time for it. And we’re both so shaky. And yeah…. we shall see.

Things ended on a good note though, and we’re talking online right now, so… things are going to be ok. I was really nervous about talking because I had no clue if we were on the same page or what…

Sorry I haven’t been commenting on everybody’s stuff, last week was sooo hectic. But this next one should be a little less stressful, so I’ll get back to my old commenting self =)

hmmm…. I just got a random thought…. I wonder what’s going to happen with prom? We shall see.

I took a long shower today. Washed away the stress that’s starting to pile up from having so much to do. Even though half the time I don’t even care. But anyway.

Things are good now. We hung out yesterday and had a good old time. And then we went to Monica’s birthday party, and that was fun too. I suck at ping pong though, haha….

Ok, time to do a lot of statistics. I have to turn all my homework in on wednesday, and I havent done any since I was sick a few days ago =/ oops.