The whole Nathaniel thing has me confused. He seems to have had a good day, and then we started talking, and then he seemed unhappy. I don’t know, I can’t explain it. But I feel like I dissapointed him somehow =/
it sucks.
But I think I’m not afraid anymore of going ahead with anything. Maybe it should wait a little, but when it’s time, I think I’m ready.
Sadie Hawkins is coming up at his school. :dances like a tard, doesn’t know how poly people would react to her, doesn’t know how she’d react to poly people:
Last night, Jason was implying to me that Nate wants me to go with him. I want to, but the whole girls ask the guy thing has me freaked out since it’s not even my school.
It’s at Knott’s. That could take away the issues of having to dance.
I’m still bummed about today. It might just be because he can’t go to the movies with us tonight. But that’s because he’s going to dinner with his family for Monica’s birthday, and to me, that’s something to be happy about. Maybe it’s also because he and Monica aren’t very close anymore. And I guess I can understand being dissapointed in that.
I haven’t talked with Monica yet. Like we said we would. Hopefully tomorrow we’ll get to do that.
Peace.
